Thanks for sharing, expatmom. Thankfully, I don't have extreme pain like I had with my son. I just have itchy, irritated skin that comes and goes. After I feed my skin is bright pink/red but then goes back to normal except for the tip of my nipples which is now like a thickened, hard piece of skin--much like how the soles of my feet get in the summer if I'm wearing sandles all summer long--that's what I mean by callouses. The skin is just tough and hard. Basically, while I'm feeding my daughter I feel irritation as if her tongue is constantly licking my skin but we also checked into latch and apparently that's all good.
I was treated with medication for thrush and then also treated myself with gentian violet (I have at least 3 bottles of that stuff at home--awful, nasty stuff--hate using it) but it did absolutely nothing for the condition--I think it actually made it a bit worse so I decided to "leave good enough alone"--it might just be how this is going to be.
I have the number of a dermatologist and have been thinking of going to see one to see if it's a skin problem--but in that case, there probably is nothing that can be done also as the best they can do is give me a topical steroid to treat the symptoms--the doctor who treated me for thrush also gave me a topical steroid but I had to wash it off before feeds and that made the condition worse (having to wash all the time).
When I was pregnant I had serious skin issues that could only be resolved by just giving birth. I think that breastfeeding actually causes the irritation to my skin--just the act of doing it--and the only solution is when I stop breastfeeding. I wish I could have stopped already for comfort's sake but then I have the problem of my daughter's intolerance to formula.
Having had a child already and struggling with breastfeeding him for six long months and grieving the fact that it was a horrible, painful experience start-to-finish and wishing in hindsight I had just went to formula earlier on so I could have enjoyed those first 6 months with him instead of hating it, I'm just able to let go of breastfeeding and move on--if only my baby's tummy could do so.
Yes, breastfeeding is wonderful if you can work it out and in your own mind you know your rationale for keeping with it--if it makes one feel better to breastfeed their child even though they're suffering then that's a choice but for me, I am not so hung up on it anymore--breastfeeding vs. not-breastfeeding in the long-term doesn't really equal out to much difference. So, for now, I'm suffering, every day, but I feel that going to formula would be even more miserable for my family at this point--choosing "the lesser of two evils" now.
Again, thanks for sharing and I really do hope that your pain stays away and that you can keep going as long as you want to.
